Stronger... 6 years later

So, most people don't know much about me. I say that honestly. I keep my inner me well guarded and separate from the me everyone gets to see. And unfortunately I came by that honestly - a string of bad relationships, mixed with bad decisions, and low self-esteem.

That's the bad news. Life wasn't always pretty for me. But here comes the good part, one that I wish I could share with more people...

IT GETS BETTER.

I don't mean that in the "don't kill yourself" way (though I mean it that way too). I mean that I never thought I would get beyond: beyond the person I was in 2007. Beyond the hurt. Beyond the hate. Beyond the "I can't". Beyond feeling that death was my only option. I never thought I would get to a point where I'd look back on that time grateful I don't feel that way anymore.

But here it is. 2013. I live in a beautiful community, with a wonderful man who has shown me a love I've never known before. With friends who I care for so deeply and I know feel the same about me. No drama. No liars. Just life. AND I LOVE IT.

So by now you're probably wondering what the point of this post is. Here it comes: I love my life. I am finally becoming the person I dreamed of being, without knowing I was dreaming of it. I have a future. I have a quality life. And I feel so lucky to be where I am now.

In short (or long, whatever), I'm just feeling pretty grateful for my life that I almost missed living. Thanks to everyone who helped me get here, good or bad. You know who you are.